I can't

I know. It's the mantra of losers and downers everywhere. But right now, I'm immobilized. Blocked. I'm dull with apathy. Hopelessness is staring me right in the face and I'm frozen right in front of it. It's repulsive, but casts such a strange spell.

I think it might be dangerous to return it's stare for too long.

I don't plan on living here though. I just need a rest.

Maybe I won't say "I can't". I'm taking a long pause... while I figure out how I will.