Tuesday, January 4, 2011

I need a hero!

The bat phone is ringing - red light flashing its urgency. "DO SOMETHING!!!" it screams.

I'm stumbling around, looking for my cape and my magic tiara, tripping on dirty laundry until I remember... Wait, I'm not a superhero. Damn.

People I care about are suffering. I've been watching them suffer for ages it seems - hoping for them, praying for them, quietly rooting for them. Waiting for someone smarter or more important to help them, or at least say something... maybe turn on a light so they can stop struggling in the dark. But no one has. And now it feels like the car's about to go off the cliff. The raft is fast approaching a waterfall.

I'm dying to jump in. I so want to help. But I'm not exactly invited. It's not really my place. And, perhaps most importantly, I'm in over my head. At best, I'll fumble through a dramatic entrance before coming to a halt and announcing from the sidelines, "um, there's a cliff over there...so, um, you might want to do something about that..." And then there's the distinct possibility that I could make things worse.

So before I take this irreversible plunge, I'm trying to sort my intentions...

Do I think I have the answers?
No. But I think I see a real problem that no one is dealing with. And it won't go away on its own.

Do I want to be the hero?
Hmmm.. Can never say no entirely, but I don't think that's it.

Do I just want to be a part of something?
Always. But this is a scary something and I'm not particularly brave.

Is there a better person for this job?
DEFINITELY. But I have no idea who or where I might find him/her.

Can I help?
It's possible.

Can I hurt?
Also possible. More likely, just make people very uncomfortable and maybe piss them off.

Am I prepared for the consequences?
Nope. I'm not really even sure what they might be.

Do I know what I'm doing?
Maybe not.

So, basically, I just think the truth kind of urgently needs to be out in the open....
And truth is not objective, is it? And I may not even have the whole truth.

Damn. I think I need to put those Clark Kent glasses back on until I hatch something closer to a plan. With any luck, a real hero will appear in the meantime.