Best Life Ever

I suppose it seems pathological to spend time knowing what you'd like on your tombstone, especially when you're not even sure you believe in tombstones, but since Ross and Ben and Shen and Tatum, I've known that that's what I'd want it to say.

There has been, there will be more, suffering.  It doesn't impact how I feel.  This life has far exceeded my expectations.  I've already experienced love beyond my imagination, have enjoyed so many miraculous surprises... wish after wish has only proven that my imagination is insufficient.  There are hard things and painful things and I don't get everything I want, but even that has contributed to the richness of it.  Comfort, it turns out, is numbing. And discomfort so very revealing. I've had so many opportunities to grow... and sometimes I've even seized those opportunities.

And my mistakes - they have been profound and even catastrophic at times - but they have made some of my good decisions feel nothing short of miraculous.

Ross is my favorite. My best decision ever. I've made a life out of growing with him.  Sometimes I lay awake at night just smiling and crying at my incredible luck.

I don't know what's ahead. Right now I don't want to dwell on it.  I just want to be right here in this moment, grateful that all the best things I can think of are right here in my life.